I spent this weekend soul-searching and working, While I didn’t neglect my January ATC challenge, I didn’t feel like writing entries for Saturday and Sunday, although technically it’s still Sunday for me because I haven’t gone to bed yet.Are you still up Carmi? When I interviewed Carmi a week ago Friday, I discovered that I’m not the only one who stays up until at least 2 a.m. making art. Carmi and I also discussed how keeping a blog is a form of accountability—not to other people, but to ourselves.
My soul-searching (and some heavy-duty writing in my journal) was prompted by three things: my ongoing email exchanges with Mary; interviewing Carmi and recognizing how focused she is; and John asking me some heavy duty questions about my purpose yesterday that basically turned me inside out.
I know I have a tendency to get off track when it comes to doing what’s important. This usually happens because of financial obligations—i.e. the need to make money—and the fact that I’ll become totally absorbed in solving some creative problem that really doesn’t matter much in the long run. So I find myself asking questions like: Who am I? What should I be giving my attention to? How can I make decisions? I thought by this stage of my life I’d have everything all figured out.
2 comments:
Wow, creative text!! I like that. You are on such a roll with these ATC's. Some of your best work in my opinion. Also see late comment on The Girls entry.
I don't think we ever get everything all figured out. Instead I try to be grateful for and take advantage of the small ephiphanies along the way. You are "in Saturn" right now. It has its purpose and more shall be revealed.
As for focus, what do you call actually writing and finishing a book? We all work in our own way.
Jeanne
P. S. Comment. Perfectly acceptable to take week-ends off from a blog. After all, there don't seem to be hard and fast rules about something so personally created and evolved.
Jeanne
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